• a work in progress

    milestones*

    Last week I realized that I’ve run one hundred miles in the last year. With a great sense of accomplishment, I recorded this number, overwhelmed with what I can do despite the challenges I face. Running used to be one of my favorite hobbies, and after my health forced me to take long hiatuses from the sport, I’m thrilled that I still get to enjoy this form of exercise. So many different factors had to perfectly align to get me running again, and I don’t take a single one for granted.     That rush of happiness and pride, however, was soon replaced with sadness. Compared to what I used…

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    ​my chronic illness dating don’ts

    Chronic illness and dating…I hardly know where to begin. First, I’m going to follow some advice that I know my mother would give me if I allowed her to sign off on all posts prior to publishing. That is, I’m going to try to avoid putting my foot in my mouth and spoil the possibility of a future relationship with a man who happens upon this blog before I’m able to explain myself.* I really wish I could frame this post with my secrets to dating when you have chronic health issues. I simply don’t know the answers myself, however, and even though my dating life has had quite an…

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    what actually makes me better

    As I become more immersed in the idea that the universe has my back compared to the universe-is-conspiring-against-me mentality onto which I held for so long, I am starting to understand where I fit into everything. I’ve read over and over again that when a person’s actions are driven by genuine forces, they experience true joy or happiness or whatever. All of that makes enough sense, right? If we do the things we actually want or need to be doing, we’re going to experience the most joy and live our best lives. But that never really worked for me. There are many times when I feel like my body isn’t on…